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I am pregnant. .. I hate it I don'the want this baby what so ever I have the sweetest boyfriend ... but I just don't love him and maybe it's me being off my med's. .. Idk it sucks so so bad ... it''s just so Unfair ... I know it's my own fault... but at the end of the day the only thing I want is to be with my son that is all me and my son... I don't think I have enough lI've in my heart to love another child ... someone just help me ... it's so not fair my friends too they treat me like shit I'm at work and they are just sitting there nt with me just me alone of course someone I thought was my best friend now just a stranger ... I wish I could get out of this place.... how can someone treat me so bad