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hello journal......its been a while!!!!!   Im starting to get back to a little version of myself now.......but it has been mighty frustrating these last few weeks.  Ive had a few panic attacks since the last time i was on here, but nothing major.......in that sense i mean that i have still been able to function at a semi normal level.  Each time i think that i am making progress, something else creeps up on me and gives me a boot up the arse. You would think that after the amount of years that i have been suffering these attacks that pretty much all the bases would have been covered now??  suprisingly not!!!   How many things can a person panic about???  Surly some form of end must be in my head somewhere.......ach well, i suppose that it is time to start retraining my thoughts and actions again in the hope that this time a little bit more is accomplished.I have had some problems sleeping again....aaaarrrrggghhh.......at the moment i could go to sleep, but i know that if i lie down the tiredness will begin to leave me and no doubt when im in the bath tonight i will fall asleep in there too........oh the injustice!!!  lolttfn