Black Mood
Been trying so hard this week. Set up times with friends, activities to do. Talk to people and keep busy.
Knew I would be lonely after Joey's grad. Been doing pretty good in spite of worries about children.
Then today is the first day of my 8 week furlough from work. Very worried about it. Set up a play date with a friend who has 4 little girls. Thought the dose of small children might help.
Sat at the park for 40 minutes and she didn't show. My middle son was coming over today he said, but I told him not to come in the morning as I was meeting my friend. So now back home alone with nothing to do as was supposed to be at the park.
And sitting there watching all those children play just made me miss the days when mine were little. A lot of skinny young moms too which reminds me when I wasn't overweight and my knee didn't hurt and I didn't get tired so easily.
Sigh. I hate it when friends cancel get togethers or don't show up leaves me feeling insecure that no one likes me and depressed.
Knew I would be lonely after Joey's grad. Been doing pretty good in spite of worries about children.
Then today is the first day of my 8 week furlough from work. Very worried about it. Set up a play date with a friend who has 4 little girls. Thought the dose of small children might help.
Sat at the park for 40 minutes and she didn't show. My middle son was coming over today he said, but I told him not to come in the morning as I was meeting my friend. So now back home alone with nothing to do as was supposed to be at the park.
And sitting there watching all those children play just made me miss the days when mine were little. A lot of skinny young moms too which reminds me when I wasn't overweight and my knee didn't hurt and I didn't get tired so easily.
Sigh. I hate it when friends cancel get togethers or don't show up leaves me feeling insecure that no one likes me and depressed.
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Paulinaa..i\'m sorry your friend wasnt able to make it.it would have been more considerate of her to have called or texted and let you know.then you could have seen your son .I wish I had a friend that lived close and could meet sometimes.It gets lonely even with these big kids around.I think maybe someday soon you will have grandkids..:)...then you will have NO time at all again..lol.....I hope your mood lifts..Big hugs! xxx