bittersweet

So today is my 1 year wedding anniversary.
It is a happy day and a sad day. I am married to the most amazing man I could ever ask for and he has been by my side every second of this horrible ordeal. On a sad note - I have doctor's appointments all afternoon and wouldn't have any energy to celebrate if I tried. I am so upset because I want to be a better wife to him.
I hate sickness and disease and whatever this terrible thing is that has taken over my body. I just pray everyday for a diagnosis so that I can begin to recover and be a wife to my husband again.