birth control pill popping

Surprise my freaking period showed up a week and a half early. So I had to go and quickly get my BCP pills filled and take them. I will be taking them for 4 weeks, my hubby and I went to get blood work done for our first IVF cycle. The bills will take me all the way to the end of summer school which is fantastic. If you agree to teach summer school you have to agree to NOT take time off. My doctor put me on a plan that will have all the "invasive stuff" happen just after summer school is over and school is about to begin. I have been a nervous wreck that I might be preggo in 2 months!! I have cried my eyes out because I am so nervous I have been in this journey for 5 years, with 2 IVF cycles fall through for 2 totally different reasons, both cycles I didn't get through the birth control part.  My doc ordered meds this week and I go in for a trial transfer next Fri.! I have been struggling this week. I mean I am angry, sad, bitter and just plan crazy!! I am supposed to be happy!!! Yet, my mind finds EVERY reason to be sad!! I need to find a IVF buddy!! Please give me some encouragment!