Biopsy Done

Well the biopsy was friday.  I still feel like I was kicked in the ribs.  They were going to go through the front , below my sternum, but the only way they could see the left lobe was if I took a deep breath and held it.  Needless to say, after the sedative, I couldn't really do anything they told me so they went in through my ribs. The most painful part was the lidocaine.  The first shot burned, the second hit my rib and I thought I was going to come off of the table, sedative or not.  After that I don't remember much.  I saw my liver pieces and remember the elevator and that's about it.   I am recovering, slowly,  and axiously waiting for my results.  Hopefully it will be tomorrow. I've discovered that the hardest part about this whole damn thing is waiting.  I have a few aquaintences that have gone through the treatment that keep telling me that it doesn't work and that I shouldn't go through with it but I am holding my ground.  I know that I know, I am already healed through Him and this is just a journey that I must take.  I know I will discover new things about myself along the way.  Good things and bad,  but I will succede.  I know I will.  I am getting more nervous as they days go by. I have to remember......just one step at a time.