Bigotry from my inlaws.
Yesterday my future brother in law called me a "fucking faggot" after i had to kick him out of my house.
Ive been called faggot many times in my life but mostly before i identified as bi or trans(mostly from bullies in school). Its not that it hurt my feelings or anythimg like that (definitely pissed me off). I juat can't help feeling a sting of hate from that word. Its like i don't know i feelsomething deep inside me i can't identify. Like a sickening vomit sensation but all over my body. I feel revolting sense of i don't even know what. I can hear his voice echoing in my head and the voices of everyone else who ever called me tht word. As an atheist ive been called many things in my life but for some reason faggot just makes me feel...defeated.
Ive been called faggot many times in my life but mostly before i identified as bi or trans(mostly from bullies in school). Its not that it hurt my feelings or anythimg like that (definitely pissed me off). I juat can't help feeling a sting of hate from that word. Its like i don't know i feelsomething deep inside me i can't identify. Like a sickening vomit sensation but all over my body. I feel revolting sense of i don't even know what. I can hear his voice echoing in my head and the voices of everyone else who ever called me tht word. As an atheist ive been called many things in my life but for some reason faggot just makes me feel...defeated.
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I\'m sorry... I know that sometimes some words coming from most folks really don\'t mean anything... Then when someone that has just a smidge of credit, says something like that, it destroys us...
I\'ve been there before... Most folks say being bi just means you can\'t make up your mind, but then that one important person says that being bi is wrong, and that they worry you are going to leave them( I\'m not, but I understand)
We put so much into what that one person says that they could tell us anything.... And it will make us remember something....
Hang in there my friend, message me if you wanna talk, or anyone can message me... I\'m always here, but not always (sorry falling asleep, thus might not make sence)