Big updates :)
Wow, haven't been around in such a long time. Life has changed so considerably. I have a job that I absolutely love. I work usually Wednesday to Friday but it changes sometimes depending what's happening that week at work.
Work has been the best thing. I've made some close contacts. One person I'm not really supposed to be friends with because she's supposed to be my job advisor but she and I are friends regardless and she has really helped me out. The whole team where I work are so supportive. I feel like I'm part of the family really. I really don't ever want to lose that job, but it's still only a temporary job and I know I have to be realistic. But there have been so many internal vacancies that I'm sure if I remain confident and do the best I can at work that they'll keep me on.
Church has changed too. I don't go to the evening sessions anymore. I found the day sessions are much more inviting and I've made some friends there too. Pastor Andrew and his wife, Sue and another lady named Elise who has 3 young chldren. I'm going to be joining the band as a singer next year. I'm really excited about giving back something with the gift God has given me.
I'm pulling away from my therapist because she's actually really negative and I think if I were a weaker person I would be swayed by her negative opinions of the people in my life. She's also inconsistant in the fact that one time she'll tell me that I need to have a life outside my cats and that even though I may feel like my cats are my children they're still just cats, and then the other day she took the whole "it's completely natural to feel like my cats are your children and it's great that you have something so positive and affirmating." She also called my mother "horrid" which is total crap. My mum may say things that are somewhat cruel but she's not "horrid". I love her and I know she does the best she can with what she was given... Actually she was given nothing and turned it into a great life for her 3 children and adoptive child. She's been an advocate for children who have been abused or neglected. She is far from horrid. Also my therapist seems to try to make me think like it's all about me. I'm not a selfish person and don't wish to be, but hell she tries! If I were to listen to her I should pretend I'm the only person in this world and to hell with everyone else.
Well those are my updates. Next to come, my work Christmas party recap!
Work has been the best thing. I've made some close contacts. One person I'm not really supposed to be friends with because she's supposed to be my job advisor but she and I are friends regardless and she has really helped me out. The whole team where I work are so supportive. I feel like I'm part of the family really. I really don't ever want to lose that job, but it's still only a temporary job and I know I have to be realistic. But there have been so many internal vacancies that I'm sure if I remain confident and do the best I can at work that they'll keep me on.
Church has changed too. I don't go to the evening sessions anymore. I found the day sessions are much more inviting and I've made some friends there too. Pastor Andrew and his wife, Sue and another lady named Elise who has 3 young chldren. I'm going to be joining the band as a singer next year. I'm really excited about giving back something with the gift God has given me.
I'm pulling away from my therapist because she's actually really negative and I think if I were a weaker person I would be swayed by her negative opinions of the people in my life. She's also inconsistant in the fact that one time she'll tell me that I need to have a life outside my cats and that even though I may feel like my cats are my children they're still just cats, and then the other day she took the whole "it's completely natural to feel like my cats are your children and it's great that you have something so positive and affirmating." She also called my mother "horrid" which is total crap. My mum may say things that are somewhat cruel but she's not "horrid". I love her and I know she does the best she can with what she was given... Actually she was given nothing and turned it into a great life for her 3 children and adoptive child. She's been an advocate for children who have been abused or neglected. She is far from horrid. Also my therapist seems to try to make me think like it's all about me. I'm not a selfish person and don't wish to be, but hell she tries! If I were to listen to her I should pretend I'm the only person in this world and to hell with everyone else.
Well those are my updates. Next to come, my work Christmas party recap!
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