big day ...

just got back home .....my h put in the new water tank this morning ...and than we left to go to his speculist apointment for 2:00 ....first we went shopping for some hose and some fittings because the fitting on the hose cracked and was spiting watter all .over .....no luck ..than went to the apointment ......well at least know at least we understand what we are up against and we understand his condition ...the doctor had the results of his scan ....I have been worried ...I gess neverous ...I gained a little weaight ...just from not handeling it well .now I almost wish I dident know .....what was realy going on ..it sounds ..bad ...but he is getting the best care the can give him ....and he is getting blod test every two weaks to see how his body and blood is doing ..and when the treatment is finished they are giving him ..a real going over ...to see if all the various is gone ...and to make sure there is no cancer .....and to check his big arteries in his liver and spleen ...and stomic are not getting to big ..so they won't burst ..because the ce roses of the liver is putting pressure on the artery in the liver so it is backing up into the spleen so the spleen is in largeg ...and ..in turn inlarging the vaines .....in the stomic so it is like getting vaeaacus vains ....in the stomic ...and because he is on blood thiners ..because of the heart atac because his red blood cells stuck together and caused his heart atac ..there is a risk if internal bleeding so they have to keep an eye on that ......so ......tomorow we leave for the hospital for 6:00 to be there for 7:00  for his apointment at 8:00 so he gan get the scop dowen his throught ..to have a look at his vains in there .....I am not sure what to feel ....I know that I am having angizity because I can feel it in my back ....he ....real..is taking it all in stride ...I am not happy about it all but I need to not be thinking about it I have to concentrate about what we are doing to heal him up ...as and than he might not of told me it all ...best as ..can be done ..and look after him and .....love him and enjoy the time we have together ....I can't let my self ..get to caught up on ...the negative .........but I think I am a little mesed up about it all ...although it was good to finaly understand exactualy what was going on with him ..I don't think I was ready to here it .........but I dident want him to here it by his self ...he might not of told me how bad it was .....one thing to be thankfull for it can be treated .....with good results and there is no cancer ...and they will be checking on that every so many months ............I don't feel good ...at all ...sick to my stomic ...migrainain is low ..but the angizity in my back is bothering me i will have to take somthing for it .....at least I have been getting some very good walks these last three days ..and again tomorow ...I will have to drive him home tomorow ....they will be giving him a ..,sedative ....we just have to pick up some splenda Browne suger .....three days going to the city ...it to much traveling for me .....our puppy realy mised us .....we stoped in to see our son and his family he has the new baby ....he is so beautiful. He is walking all over and talking he knowes so many words I got kisses hi and by ....he is realy trying to talk ...he can say a lot of words now and he knowes just what he wants ..he is blond and has the beautiful east blue eyes ...with a darker ..blue all around the outside of the blue ....and he was dancing for us ..he is going to be a dancer ....he is a very good dancer ....I got all my hugs from everyone ....I can't right any more ...God bless ..all ....