Better year

Could I call myself lucky when I found out I had CML, despite all the hassles and pains that goes with it, still surviving, when my brother who never had a chance after  being diagnosed with bone marrow cancer cancer died a few months later?
I had a rough year last year because of that. Only consolation now is knowing he's not suffering anymore. He left us mourning but in the end we know he's resting now with no more pain! Life sucks, and big time. Sometimes I question my faith in God, but I can't really give it up. I guess that is why you call it faith. And life throws a learning curve once in while, sometimes it hurts, sometimes it hurts even more.
I am hoping aches and pains goes away, sometimes I get worried, sometimes I  just don't bother, but with this CML I tend to be worried with some "minor" pain, unussual or not, better have it take a look by an oncologist.
I hope to survive another year, I hope this one is better than the last one.