Better life
There has never been a time in my life where I felt like I deserved to be happy. I have always felt like I was not good enough, I wasnt doing things right, or good enough, I wasnt pretty enough or smart enough. The only thing I wanted to do in life was to be a good wife and mother and my ex made me feel like a failure at both. I think deep down I knew I was a good mother, but I never felt like a good wife. I dont know what finally made me realize I deserved better but devine intervention brought me a wonderful man that I am so in love with and treats me like a princess. I am the only woman in the world as far as he is concerned (aside from my daughters, which he also loves and adores) I am so grateful to finally see and feel what love and a wonderful life is suppose to be about. I love you more than words can say NYerinWI!!!!!!!
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Wow, where to begin. Gonna have me do a journal post too :-P. I think the very first thing I want/need to say is I love you more than I could ever express. Secondly, you are by far the best person to come into my life rating up there with my two boys. I promise to you (and this promise lots of people can see it lol) that I will always treat the 3 of you with love dignity respect and fairness. I know its been a very rough road the last stretch of time. The exit offramp to the next stage of your future awaits and from here it is pristinely smooth, just paved. I love you 3 very much. Thank you for being a part of my life
*hugs, kisses and tears* I love you
*hugs and kisses back* I love you too
I got to thinking...really thinking about what you said above. What I am about to say should help you see things in a better point of view, and I am not saying these things because I am your other half and biased towards you lol
You always thought "I have always felt like I was not good enough, I wasnt doing things right, or good enough, I wasnt pretty enough or smart enough. The only thing I wanted to do in life was to be a good wife and mother and my ex made me feel like a failure at both. I think deep down I knew I was a good mother, but I never felt like a good wife." Those are your exact words. Let me tell you something. I have seen and heard you interact with both girls. You are a fantastic mom. You are a fantastic wife. Its the stbex that is the failure not you. He was the horrible husband. He is the horrible dad. Im not going to get into specifics in public but needless to say yeah, not good at all he was/is. For the last 17 years my heart and soul have broken for you to endure that kind of insanity. I have a lot of work to do to undo whats bee done but you know what, itll be well worth it. I just want you to know the life you had is not how life is and I will do everything I can to show you the best of life. Im in this to the end...the very end. Im determined to see you three through this and safe with me
Wow. Just when I think you cant get any more perfect you go and say all this. I truly believe God sent you to me at exactly the right moment in my life because he knew that I needed you. That we needed each other. You complete me in a way I never though possible. All the things I dreamed of as a child growing into a woman. Wanting to be a great wife and mother, you make me believe that it is possible. You make me feel like with you all things are possible. I know you are never far away and even though this is the beginning of our life together, I know that you are the one that was made for me. Thank you for saving me from the dark place that I was living in. I love you more than words can express.
What I feel with you is the most powerful feeling of love I have ever felt in my life. Its overwhelming at times how powerful it is. Its one of those feelings where I cant lose this feeling, I dont want to lose this feeling. I vaguely remember in the very beginning talking about a 3 legged table. For those who havent heard this, read it. I came up with it all on my own
Relationships/marriages to me is like a 3 legged table. The legs of the table represent love, honesty, and trust. Now supposing you are dishonest- kick the leg out, the table falls and so does the relationship. To make it even wilder, you are dishonest *kick leg out* which leads to your partner unable to trust you *kick leg out* and because they cant trust you, the love is gone and you got nothing to stand on. Its quite simple. Take care of that table. Keep it in pristine condition. If you do that wonderous things will happen but most people are too busy to realize this. Thats why breakups and divorces are so common.
I do agree, I showed up when you needed me and also I needed you. It took a lot to get to where we are but the harder it is the more worth it it is. Im not going to gush all the qualities I love about you. It would take hours to write this up. I cannot wait for it to be "out with the old in with the new" for you. Wherever we go whatever we do, it is going to be amazing. Thank you for saving me too. I love you more than I can express
Baby you are more than I could ever have dreamed of. I love you with everything I am. You amaze me daily.
I truly am looking forward to showing you what life should be about, the 180 of what it is now for you