Better days are ahead

What exactly am I searching for. It is always when we are down that all the questions come. I don't feel like I am fighting this alone. Sometimes that trips me out as I don't have to put in a whole lot of strength. Sometimes I feel I am being carried and the wind is blowing my hair. Today, I'm looking to blame myself, as if I was to know something. If I'm not on top of my so called game, then I feel like a failure. the flesh sucks!!!!! I can have all the Faith one day, and the next I"m back to questioning God. He allows me a bad day to strengthen my faith, and to teach me how to stand. I cannot crawl forever. Now we are back to Trust again. I am only guarenteed Today!!! And that depends upon my spirtual maintenence.Did I pray today? Did I thank God for the things that are imoportant? Did I help someone? This whole picture has nothing to do with me. It is all about getting as far from self as we possibly can. And focusing on others.