better and better!

okay, so i found out from the registrar that i was granted an incomplete (so nice of Dr. B. to let me know herself - snort) so I don't have to turn in her paper until the last day of next semester. i don't plan on waiting that long, but i do feel so much pressure come off. i really didn't know what i want to write about and my first deadline was tomorrow and being as i only started feeling well tuesday, it was going to be tough.
but....all that aside....i feel so much better today! no crying jags in the last 24 hours, no feeling of overwhelming blueness or being swallowed up by the void. i feel like i can handle things. it's great to feel this way again! yes, my issues are still there and i have lots and lots to work on, but i feel like i can address them and cope instead of waiting, waiting for them to devour me.
 
edit: now i know for sure i'm doing better - i've just had a call from an obnoxious former financial aid advisor and instead of being crushed and frightened i'm annoyed. he kept telling me things that i need to do but then i heard him flipping through some sort of handbook and mutter "oh, i'm responsible for that part, not her"  when he came back to me i questioned him about every little thing and finally he admitted some things that *he* has to do - HAH- take that mr. i'm not-accountable! and double - HAH - you can take it too bpd!