Berklee!
Just thought I'd do a brief update because the long story is so hard to explain.
After coming here and suffering through rejections from the A Cappella groups (who were very cliquey), I realized there are no real music opportunities here and that coming here and going for Psychology was a mistake. I realized my dream all along was to go to Berklee for music, but I self sabotaged because I was convinced I couldn't. The road is still tough and I doubt myself a lot, but I tell myself that if this is what I want the only option is to keep going.
I never worked much on my theory. I had lessons for singing and I always got what I wanted in high school so I had no need for it, but I wish I had worked harder now because it just makes it that much harder for me. There is no changing the past though, only the future.
I auditioned about a month ago for the fall semester. I only was able to be brave and make the decision two weeks before the audition deadline for the fall semester, so I had very little time to prepare. I'm not strong on theory, but at my audition I sang and played my song well, and I interviewed well, so I'm hoping that counts for something. However, this time around, the odds are not ever in my favor. The decision letters were supposed to come out this saturday, but there was a fire in Boston and the school lost power for a few days so everything is late :(
There is a chance I will get in, but there is also a chance I will not. In that case I will audition for the spring semester at the latest audition date possible, in July. I get out of school May 5th, so this will give me 2 straight months to prepare. I am getting in touch with a teacher at Berklee to tutor me a bit in the things that will count the most at the audition. It will also look good in my interview if I say I've been trying very hard and making an effort to learn to sight sing, even though it's not my forte right now.
Woo, this turned out to be longer than I thought! But anyways, that's what's up! I've been struggling a lot with Borderline episodes from the stress, but overall I am pretty driven to reach this goal!
Been trying eat healthier too, not deprive myself but not eat mindlessly. Definitely been feeling yellow face.
Let me know what you've all been up to! :)
After coming here and suffering through rejections from the A Cappella groups (who were very cliquey), I realized there are no real music opportunities here and that coming here and going for Psychology was a mistake. I realized my dream all along was to go to Berklee for music, but I self sabotaged because I was convinced I couldn't. The road is still tough and I doubt myself a lot, but I tell myself that if this is what I want the only option is to keep going.
I never worked much on my theory. I had lessons for singing and I always got what I wanted in high school so I had no need for it, but I wish I had worked harder now because it just makes it that much harder for me. There is no changing the past though, only the future.
I auditioned about a month ago for the fall semester. I only was able to be brave and make the decision two weeks before the audition deadline for the fall semester, so I had very little time to prepare. I'm not strong on theory, but at my audition I sang and played my song well, and I interviewed well, so I'm hoping that counts for something. However, this time around, the odds are not ever in my favor. The decision letters were supposed to come out this saturday, but there was a fire in Boston and the school lost power for a few days so everything is late :(
There is a chance I will get in, but there is also a chance I will not. In that case I will audition for the spring semester at the latest audition date possible, in July. I get out of school May 5th, so this will give me 2 straight months to prepare. I am getting in touch with a teacher at Berklee to tutor me a bit in the things that will count the most at the audition. It will also look good in my interview if I say I've been trying very hard and making an effort to learn to sight sing, even though it's not my forte right now.
Woo, this turned out to be longer than I thought! But anyways, that's what's up! I've been struggling a lot with Borderline episodes from the stress, but overall I am pretty driven to reach this goal!
Been trying eat healthier too, not deprive myself but not eat mindlessly. Definitely been feeling yellow face.
Let me know what you've all been up to! :)
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Hey!!!! I think you were 18 the last time I looked at your journal!!!! Did I miss a birthday!!? (Or just forget it. My memory is that bad.)
Well, over 50% of all the college students change their majors, so no big surprise there!!!
And you know what you want and you\'re going after it!!! All is good!!!!
I\'m really floored that you couldn\'t get into the A Capella groups!!!!! Obviously had nothing to do with your singing talent.
Oh, gosh!!! It\'s hard enough, waiting to hear of an important outcome!!! How cruel Fate is to make the wait even longer!!!!
I\'ll wish for good news, but I like your plan for the Spring audition, just in case!!!!
I\'m glad you\'re paying attention to your physical health!!! That\'s important to everything else, too!!!
I\'m glad you\'re doing as well as you are!!!! You\'re taking your life seriously!!!! (((((Hugs)))))
Your taking steps and making decisions and your going in the path of what you desire most and when you have the drive like you do, you will be amazed at what you can accomplish. COngrats your taking life by the wheel and making the most of it(: Dont Give Up. Accepted or not accepted.Your heading somehwere Great:) and BEST WISHESES:) make sure to update on us after your accepted i know the waiting process can drag on and leave room for worry and stress and more worry,Maybe try doing enything that relaxes your mind and body will help tremedousily:)
hugsxxx
ash
whoa the fire thing is a weird coincidence! anyway, i hope the letters come in soon. berklee is a really really good school and i bet you\'ll be great in it. the theory stuff you can pick up as you go along. anyway, keep on taking care of yourself and sounds like you have a good mindset about all this.
hey this is a good journal, good for you, im so pleased..... DS has been playing up for a while so I tend not to come on here as much, if you don\'t hear from people then thats probably the reason :-/
Good to hear your going to do what you want now! I hope everything works out the way you want it to:) Take care of yourself:)
goodluck will be thinking of you!
I think you are better and stronger than you give yourself credit for, it\'s a battle ahead but those that defeat battles are those that are willing to shoot for the stars and aim for greater things, and that\'s what you are doing Meg, I believe that if you want something bad enough and are willing to work very hard to achieve your goal, I believe that\'s there is nothing you can\'t accomplish. Just prepare yourself for the best and that\'s what you will recieve everytime. Good luck on your auditions, eventhough you do not need it, I know you\'ll do great and excel in anything you set your mind into doing