Being misunderstood and ignored by children
Times are sure different than those I grew up in. I learned a long time ago, when I look in the Mirror I'm looking at the person responsible for all the decision I made in my Life.
When I was 12 years old, I vowed to God and the moon and stars I'd never treat my children like I was being treated. I'd never cuss em and call em white trash, sorry no good for nothing little bastards...I swore I'd never beat em with a wire flyswatter handle, water hose, broom handle, and all the other things my grandmother used on me...
Now days it's really hard to get those painful memories out of my mind. The many mistakes I made, and bad choices that I made... I'm not actually in regret... just ashamed.. When I chat with old classmates on line or facebook, I realize how much I failed in the common sense department...
Well I never had much stock in material things, Jesus said leave this and follow me. I guess in a way my wondering around thru life did teach me a thing or two. I certainly grew to be a better person, than I could of been.
So long story made shorter...hehehe.... I was whinning to God about how I didn't understand how my children could turn on me after all I had worked so hard for... them...after all the Love, and support I gave them so they could have better life's than I had as a child and adult.
As I sat so down and lowly feeling, A voice in my mind, told me that the way I feel, was kinda like how God and his son Jesus feels when, people use Gods kindness, love and long suffering....then ignore them in their everyday lives...all those people who kill in Gods name, who hide behind the name of God, and Jesus... and miss use their positions for self gratifications...
Yeah I feel kinda down, cause I know I've done the same thing to our Creator and his son. All these painful years dealing with my disability, and my families rejections. They don't seem so difficult today...Cause I know Jesus will help me carry the burden, I'm not alone!
I pray so many time that God and Jesus have a good day, that someone somewhere here on Earth, does something that makes Gods heart glad... something really nice so Gods heart don't hurt like mine...I've never really understood why God choose to come to me when I was 7 years old...but I realize I'd never survived all those beating all those years if he hadn't...I often wondered how Jesus could be so unselfish... willing to follow his fathers wishes and give his Life so some selfish, small minded person like me might have the chance of everlasting life...
Simply put...For God so loved the world he gave his Only begotten Son...yepp ...amen
So I don't feel so bad today, see long time ago my fear of God was... not what he was going to do to me...but was I causing him to feel bad... yes I'm sure I hurt his feeling many time...but he still watches over me and my children... I've received so many blessing... I can't even count..
I pray O heavenly Father, that at very least you know how very grateful and honored I am that you have never abandoned Us... your Earthly children.... Thank you and your son...through Jesus's name ...amen
When I was 12 years old, I vowed to God and the moon and stars I'd never treat my children like I was being treated. I'd never cuss em and call em white trash, sorry no good for nothing little bastards...I swore I'd never beat em with a wire flyswatter handle, water hose, broom handle, and all the other things my grandmother used on me...
Now days it's really hard to get those painful memories out of my mind. The many mistakes I made, and bad choices that I made... I'm not actually in regret... just ashamed.. When I chat with old classmates on line or facebook, I realize how much I failed in the common sense department...
Well I never had much stock in material things, Jesus said leave this and follow me. I guess in a way my wondering around thru life did teach me a thing or two. I certainly grew to be a better person, than I could of been.
So long story made shorter...hehehe.... I was whinning to God about how I didn't understand how my children could turn on me after all I had worked so hard for... them...after all the Love, and support I gave them so they could have better life's than I had as a child and adult.
As I sat so down and lowly feeling, A voice in my mind, told me that the way I feel, was kinda like how God and his son Jesus feels when, people use Gods kindness, love and long suffering....then ignore them in their everyday lives...all those people who kill in Gods name, who hide behind the name of God, and Jesus... and miss use their positions for self gratifications...
Yeah I feel kinda down, cause I know I've done the same thing to our Creator and his son. All these painful years dealing with my disability, and my families rejections. They don't seem so difficult today...Cause I know Jesus will help me carry the burden, I'm not alone!
I pray so many time that God and Jesus have a good day, that someone somewhere here on Earth, does something that makes Gods heart glad... something really nice so Gods heart don't hurt like mine...I've never really understood why God choose to come to me when I was 7 years old...but I realize I'd never survived all those beating all those years if he hadn't...I often wondered how Jesus could be so unselfish... willing to follow his fathers wishes and give his Life so some selfish, small minded person like me might have the chance of everlasting life...
Simply put...For God so loved the world he gave his Only begotten Son...yepp ...amen
So I don't feel so bad today, see long time ago my fear of God was... not what he was going to do to me...but was I causing him to feel bad... yes I'm sure I hurt his feeling many time...but he still watches over me and my children... I've received so many blessing... I can't even count..
I pray O heavenly Father, that at very least you know how very grateful and honored I am that you have never abandoned Us... your Earthly children.... Thank you and your son...through Jesus's name ...amen
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God Bless you Russ.
He always has ..thanks