behavioral observations

okay, so, he has a doctor appointment to have his diabetic medications adjusted. if he was compliant he would not have found out his blood values were too high months ago and not in such a dramatic, stress filled way. anyway who likes the doctor BUT come on the nasty, over the top immature anxiety response to this event is just unbelievable. grow the f*** up!
as much as i am really detaching from his misery..... just being in his presence gives me that ball of anxiety/nausea in the pit of my stomach. ugh.  but i will not rise to the bait and let him know, because he keeps saying that he is "looking for a fist fight"  not with me prince charming!!!!!
i realize this is a rant about someone else's damaged psyche, and i am choosing to stay in the house for financial reasons.   so a rant here is better than frustrated, angry words between us.
so i about 30 minutes he will leave and i will have the house to myself (a very rare event) for a few hours.   phew!
THEN he will arrive home with even more misery and a plan of care he will not follow through with anyway.
life is too short for this.....