Beginning of a "New Life"

Good Morning John Howard and what a Great Morning it is.  Called the office this morning got that over with.  Lunch with my Attorney today, looking forward to it.  Then it will be shopping for winter clothes with the girls.  I know what a life.  I am now once again a "Lady of Leisure", you loved it that way I know.  The kids are doing ok, can't say great because they still miss you.  But we are learning to depend on each other and we can talk open and honestly about everything.  That is such a great feeling knowing I don't have to hide anything from them.  But you know me our whole life was an open book, no secrets.  Jessica asked me a question this morning was sorta shocked but I guess she wanted to know.  I told her and she was ok with the answer.  Said Chad is really missing his dad and just needs to know that his MOM will be OK.  I told them I am fine and starting to look forward to what "God" has in store for me.  Going on a trip this weekend with Donna to Ohio, I know can you believe it Me and Donna again.  How I used to love the trips we would take for the Craft Shows.  Went to the 911 Memorial Mass yesterday Hal sang and I cried nothing unusual.  It was really beautiful you would have loved it.  Well darling you will always be a part of my life that will never change.  I so miss that look you would give me, you know the one I am talking about, LOL.  Oh and that little hand jester of yours makes me laugh when I think about it now, didn't at the time you made me blush so inappropriate.  Jessica keeps texting me telling me how much she is in love with Chad said she didn't think it was possible to love him more but each day is better than the day before.  I know exactly how she feels 32 years of unconditional love how can you compare anything with that you can't.  But the years of experience you can bring to a "New Relationship" knowing what you had and not settling for anything less will make you want it that much more.  Because you won't wonder if it is possible because you know it is.  So I will start a New Chapter of my life.  Sorry but today it will start with "RED EYES" me and Jessica had a fabulous talk just what I needed, but she is worried about Chad.  You know men can't show there emotions have to be strong for their wife, boy he is like his dad.  All my love, Dra'