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journal entry 5
well i have come out to my two best friends , i mean one of them is not talking to me but it is not because i am bisexual because i told her and she was fine with it in fact we even checked out girls together even though she is not bi or lesbian , she is weird though and angry at me right now we have not spoken in like a week. anyways the day after the fight i freaked out bad and stuff it was really bad , like really bad. but luckily something good came of it because i finally told my other best friend , not the one i have a crush on she is the one who is angry at me, that i was bi and she hugged me and said she was proud of me coming out of the closet and whatever, the next day we hung out and she asked me some weird but not unexpected things.
my main joy is that no one seems to be connecting any dots , well or so i think.
i have been said for the last few days cause when i have a fight with , let call her lucy , she does not talk to me and it is horrible. so i can't stop telling my other friend, lets call her amanda , how much i wish life would just go back to normal , except with the me being in the closet part.
let me explain to me this feels like a bad divorce ( exaggeration i get that a bad divorce must be much worse) she gets the dog ,the house and worse of all she gets, lets call her amanda and i can't do anything because she is mad at me and i feel bad. so fine i gave her everything in the divorce because i feel like she deserves it ... SO NOT THE POINT !
the point is that she asked about me today she was like , hey is she here , and then amanda was like do you even care and she was like no but she said yes with her eyes which means she is starting to forgive me which is great and i am actually a bit over her, just a bit. i mean i keep listening to gypsy by Shakira cause it is my go to song when i am upset, so yeah i am happy and i just keep waiting for that moment life goes back to normalish , what is normal anyways right?
well i have come out to my two best friends , i mean one of them is not talking to me but it is not because i am bisexual because i told her and she was fine with it in fact we even checked out girls together even though she is not bi or lesbian , she is weird though and angry at me right now we have not spoken in like a week. anyways the day after the fight i freaked out bad and stuff it was really bad , like really bad. but luckily something good came of it because i finally told my other best friend , not the one i have a crush on she is the one who is angry at me, that i was bi and she hugged me and said she was proud of me coming out of the closet and whatever, the next day we hung out and she asked me some weird but not unexpected things.
my main joy is that no one seems to be connecting any dots , well or so i think.
i have been said for the last few days cause when i have a fight with , let call her lucy , she does not talk to me and it is horrible. so i can't stop telling my other friend, lets call her amanda , how much i wish life would just go back to normal , except with the me being in the closet part.
let me explain to me this feels like a bad divorce ( exaggeration i get that a bad divorce must be much worse) she gets the dog ,the house and worse of all she gets, lets call her amanda and i can't do anything because she is mad at me and i feel bad. so fine i gave her everything in the divorce because i feel like she deserves it ... SO NOT THE POINT !
the point is that she asked about me today she was like , hey is she here , and then amanda was like do you even care and she was like no but she said yes with her eyes which means she is starting to forgive me which is great and i am actually a bit over her, just a bit. i mean i keep listening to gypsy by Shakira cause it is my go to song when i am upset, so yeah i am happy and i just keep waiting for that moment life goes back to normalish , what is normal anyways right?
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