Before

I remember a time before I was the Beth that I am now.  I remember being independent.  Not afraid to take my children places.  Certainly never afraid to be alone with them.  I remember walking all the time, and I certainly never worried about it.  Never felt like I had to have someone come with me to call 911 in case something happens to me.  I lived.  I lived confidently.  I wasn't constantly worried about dying.  I wasn't constantly thinking about my anxiety.  I cleaned all the time and never worried about too many stairs.
 
I miss being that way.  I miss living.  I miss being confident.