Been gone, now I'm back

It's been a while since I've been on here.  A lot has been going on in my life recently.  I recently suffered from an emotional breakdown.  I am extremely sensitive now and cannot hide behind my anger like I used to.  
I'm going in for a surgery on Wednesday.  It is a major surgery, but, it's considered elective; even though it is deemed medically necessary for me to have.  I am nervous and scared.  
On another note, I have been smoke free for 31 days.