Been awhile..too long actually
Been awhile since I last wrote in my journal. So much has gone on, I don't even know where to begin.
Seems like no matter what I'm bound to have shit thrown in my way to screw things up. The "Detective" was unable to help with my daughter being assaulted at school. The lawyer I tried to hire for my daughter in all this mess suddenly stopped calling or returning emails. Makes me feel like a shit parent that I was not able to nail this fucker for what he did. But the seeming slack-assedness of the detective really pissed me off. I finally had to call HIM to find out what the hell was going on. I know that my daughter wasn't the only case he was working on, but jeez..really..I have to be the one to call to find out you closed the damn case??
We had a scare with my father in law trying to push my mother in law into doing a reverse mortgage. Hell the man don't even know how to fill out a damn check, how the hell is HE supposed to understand all the ins and outs of that kinda shit?
Not to mention the two of them left,( this happened about a month ago) and knew that the power and water was fixing to be shut off and didn't tell us anything and the two of the left and "went to spend the night at her (mother in laws) friends house". That "night" wound up being almost all week long. While me, hubby and kids sat here with no power or water, and knowing that I wouldn't get paid until that Friday. At the time we were all "supposed" to be helping each other as a family, buying food and house supplies together and trying to make it as a "family". They left us completely high and dry. Which had it been just me and the hubby I wouldn't have cared, but the fact that they left the kids in the lurch like that made me madder than hell. But, oh well..screw it.
My left armpit is doing just fine, but my right armpit and my inner right thigh are not so good. No new spots in my right armpit, but the incisions have kinda taken place of the HS spots with their own brand of irritation. My inner right thigh now has two huge spots that are active as heck. I can't wait to get our insurance back so I can try to track down yet ANOTHER surgeon who has a clue (my first doc was awesome! second guy not so great.) about HS and can carve out this section in my leg. Then it will be just a waiting game until the left inner thigh goes south and then it will be it's turn.
I thought about stuff like Humira and Remicaide, but my husband is real leery of me using meds like that. Every time he sees a commercial for them and they start the run down of "side effects" he gets all serious and asks me "With the way medications react to you, do you really want to try this and possibly have to deal with that on top of the HS?" He's got a good point, although it don't stop me from thinking about them..lol.
But I'm keeping biologics as a last resort. So far HS hasn't returned in my properly done armpit (left) and I hope it don't. As long as it stays ok I may stay away from them. But since I'm not so comfortable about surgery in my lady parts, that may be the point that I turn to them.
Surgery the first time around was surprisingly easy and awesome. Very little after surgical pain, and being able to rest a lot helped. But I was back to work in two days or so.
Second time around instead of general they put me in a twilight sleep and when I started snoring jammed a tube up my freaking nose and then didn't have the common sense god gave a goose to get the damn thing outta my nose before I woke up in recovery! I thought my head would explode! Then the nurse took it out and I thought my head would collapse! Good God Gertie! I will NEVER..EVER..have another procedure done where that is going to be done to me. EVER. And the pain in my armpit was like someone had a hot poker jammed up in my armpit, and I had to beg for pain relief and it seemed like the nurse took forever, although that may have been because I was in SO MUCH UNNECESSARY DISCOMFORT! So I'm not seeing that plastic surgeon again. I may see another of his colleagues but not him.
it's almost 1am now so I'm stopping for now.
Seems like no matter what I'm bound to have shit thrown in my way to screw things up. The "Detective" was unable to help with my daughter being assaulted at school. The lawyer I tried to hire for my daughter in all this mess suddenly stopped calling or returning emails. Makes me feel like a shit parent that I was not able to nail this fucker for what he did. But the seeming slack-assedness of the detective really pissed me off. I finally had to call HIM to find out what the hell was going on. I know that my daughter wasn't the only case he was working on, but jeez..really..I have to be the one to call to find out you closed the damn case??
We had a scare with my father in law trying to push my mother in law into doing a reverse mortgage. Hell the man don't even know how to fill out a damn check, how the hell is HE supposed to understand all the ins and outs of that kinda shit?
Not to mention the two of them left,( this happened about a month ago) and knew that the power and water was fixing to be shut off and didn't tell us anything and the two of the left and "went to spend the night at her (mother in laws) friends house". That "night" wound up being almost all week long. While me, hubby and kids sat here with no power or water, and knowing that I wouldn't get paid until that Friday. At the time we were all "supposed" to be helping each other as a family, buying food and house supplies together and trying to make it as a "family". They left us completely high and dry. Which had it been just me and the hubby I wouldn't have cared, but the fact that they left the kids in the lurch like that made me madder than hell. But, oh well..screw it.
My left armpit is doing just fine, but my right armpit and my inner right thigh are not so good. No new spots in my right armpit, but the incisions have kinda taken place of the HS spots with their own brand of irritation. My inner right thigh now has two huge spots that are active as heck. I can't wait to get our insurance back so I can try to track down yet ANOTHER surgeon who has a clue (my first doc was awesome! second guy not so great.) about HS and can carve out this section in my leg. Then it will be just a waiting game until the left inner thigh goes south and then it will be it's turn.
I thought about stuff like Humira and Remicaide, but my husband is real leery of me using meds like that. Every time he sees a commercial for them and they start the run down of "side effects" he gets all serious and asks me "With the way medications react to you, do you really want to try this and possibly have to deal with that on top of the HS?" He's got a good point, although it don't stop me from thinking about them..lol.
But I'm keeping biologics as a last resort. So far HS hasn't returned in my properly done armpit (left) and I hope it don't. As long as it stays ok I may stay away from them. But since I'm not so comfortable about surgery in my lady parts, that may be the point that I turn to them.
Surgery the first time around was surprisingly easy and awesome. Very little after surgical pain, and being able to rest a lot helped. But I was back to work in two days or so.
Second time around instead of general they put me in a twilight sleep and when I started snoring jammed a tube up my freaking nose and then didn't have the common sense god gave a goose to get the damn thing outta my nose before I woke up in recovery! I thought my head would explode! Then the nurse took it out and I thought my head would collapse! Good God Gertie! I will NEVER..EVER..have another procedure done where that is going to be done to me. EVER. And the pain in my armpit was like someone had a hot poker jammed up in my armpit, and I had to beg for pain relief and it seemed like the nurse took forever, although that may have been because I was in SO MUCH UNNECESSARY DISCOMFORT! So I'm not seeing that plastic surgeon again. I may see another of his colleagues but not him.
it's almost 1am now so I'm stopping for now.
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