Been A While...

Where do I begin?  It's been a long time since I've written anything on here other than jokes to let everyone know I'm still alive.  Things have been crazy lately, and I have had so much confusion in my head about what I want... Halloween was great- Jonathan was 'Bob The Builder' and got tons of candy.  I just wish one of those houses he went to would have handed out toothbrushes- but I think that's just a 'mommy thing'.  He's already talking about Christmas, thanks to stores putting out the Christmas stuff back in September.  I swear, pretty soon they'll start putting up displays for Christmas right before Easter!!  Doesn't matter how early they do it though, I never shop until the last minute anyways because I always procrastinate. Jonathan's also doing very well in school.  His teachers adore him, and he has made a LOT of progress.  His teachers and therapists are almost certain that by next school year he won't be in special education anymore.  Ever since starting him on B12 and extra children's vitamins, he's been making progress faster than I can blink!  I'm very proud of him, and he barely does the 'echolalia' thing anymore.  Stimming is almost completely gone, except for when he gets VERY excited.  He's very smart, and picks up on things very quick.  I'm so proud of him! As for my marriage, I just don't know.  We miss each other, but I have to wonder.  He says he loves me and misses me, but after all I've been through, it's scary to even think about going back.  We've talked about it, but he says that he doesn't think I should come home since he doesn't think he can stop hitting me.  We're looking for a new house, some place close to my parents.  We're talking things out, and we'll see where things go.  I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to do, but I guess that all depends on him.  One thing is for certain- I am a completely different person than I was nearly 7 months ago.  I have my confidence back, and he has been warned that he will NEVER again break me. A very mean and jealous girl tried to come between what was left of us because she was jealous and wanted to be with him, and that actually got us talking and brought us closer.  It didn't make things perfect, but it did make us realize a lot of things.  One thing no one has ever been able to do is succeed at coming between the two of us.  People try, but it only makes us stand stronger together.  This girl was PSYCHO!  I don't know who she thought she was, but my husband had no interest in her, and I thought of her as a close friend.  Turned out that she was telling people she had pictures of my husband's 'private area' and claiming to be his girlfriend.  Now, I know my husband.  I know he won't take pictures of himself at all, let alone anything like the ones she claimed to have.  She also sent an email to a friend of mine, claiming she was going to call Child And Family Services on me and have Jonathan taken away.  What is WRONG with some people??  She's got a couple of children.  How would she feel if someone did that to her??  I just don't understand some people.  What's worse is that I was always so nice to her, but she went and spread lies and rumors about me, trying to make me look bad because she was so jealous.  Thing is, I'm no one to be jealous of!!  She even claimed to be abused by her ex-husband, and I opened up to her about what went on in my marriage- thinking she would understand.  Turns out, she wasn't abused- at least I don't think she was.  If she was, then there's no way on Earth she would try to make Rob angry with me, knowing what he's done to me in the past.  What kind of indecent, disgusting, psychotic, and terrible person would DO something like that??  She disgusts me, and I have very strong opinions about what should be done to women like her who have no morals at all.  The worst part is that she is teaching her CHILDREN to behave like that!  That's just what this world needs- more psychotic people running around, being jealous and trying to ruin lives by having people's children taken away and trying to split up marriages.  I don't get why anyone would want to hurt innocent people and innocent children.  Someday someone's going to do to her what she TRIED to do to me, and when that happens, I'll be laughing to myself- Karma's a funny thing...