Been A While...

So, it's been a long while since I wrote anything on here...Jonathan starts kindergarten tomorrow and WOW he's getting so big!!  Bittersweet I guess- all of you parents can understand how I feel, I'm sure.Rob lost his job a few weeks ago and all of his utilities are getting cut off.  So, a very near and dear friend of mine is helping him out by taking him to do some work and splitting half the profit with him, which is nice.  My friend didn't have to do this, and he knows everything that's gone on with Rob and I, but he's a great guy so he's helping out.  An old friend of mine just had a birthday 2 days ago, and I wanted to call her to say happy birthday, but I didn't.  I stopped talking to her a few months ago because of her drug addiction.  I have called her every year on her birthday for the past 14 years, and this is the first year I didn't.  She was just in the hospital as a result of her drug abuse, and her little sister gave me the phone number for her room there.  But, I didn't call.  I wanted to so badly, but I just couldn't do it.  The same friend who is out with Rob right now also offered to take me to see her, and to be there for support, but I still couldn't do it.  I may never be able to, I don't know.I am still living with my parents, although Jonathan and I have spent the night at Rob's here and there.  My parents are driving me crazy, mainly my mom is.  I want a job, but Jonathan will only be in school for ½ a day, so I have to figure out who can and will babysit.  Hopefully I can figure something out soon. So, that's what's going on with me.  I haven't forgotten my DS friends, I just have a lot on my plate at the moment...