Been a long time

Well it has been a long while since I posted. Had a few ups and a lot of downs. Been fighting the urge to end the fight of life a lot more recently. Guess with Tami's passing and the realization that life doesn't come with any promises I just wonder what's the point. I have plenty to live for, my wife, children and mother and friends. Seems however that time spent with them is always fleeting The joy short lived to return to what then seems like an even darker room. I take my medication's regularly may need to change them up. I have lost my spiritual faith, even though I know my best hope may lie with God. Work is unfulfilling and lately unappreciated. I hope I find a path that brings me happiness soon. Time I feel is running out.