Because I don't know how to do it yet.

Soon I will depart. To retrieve thearpy to begin living a life outside of my home. I will builld this safe place in life. It will begin in one year. I will do it everything I can to share, and say this is all from living the experience, and doing everything right now from now on, if sometimes I meander back and fail, I will hold my head high, and say."I"m fighting the best I got in me." I can do it for a decade. You can do it for a day. Do not hurt yourself today. You been through enough. Heidi Lorraine Helen sch.....