Beauty in Pain

I come to a conclusion, which I have been told many times before..GOD won't waste your pain. There is beauty in your pain. With that it has been 4 long months without my Sonshine. To say he was born at 23 weeks and lived for 3 months, he was full of life. His personality was always "please massage my scalp" "I like to be pampered" lol. He was so cute, splitting imagine of his dad. I sometimes wonder if I gave birth or did his dad. But as time has passed on, I noticed the beauty in my pain. Getting to know my husband more and more and on a deeper level. Not to say, I didn't before, but things so more intimate between us and our marriage. I am so grateful for the beauty of it all. I live to know that I am loved by my husband and I know, I am loved my child in heaven. Garrison, thank you for those 3 months! I wish I could have raised you but you are far better off with our Lord and savior and your big brother. 

Love Always,

Mommy