Beam Me Up
JBsix recently shared her personal insight into death. Still, I was puzzled by my own reactions to death over the near two years since my husband passed. We on this group have made jokes about it, cried about it, but it is clear to me that most of us have wanted to join our spouses at one point or another and few of us would call ourselves suicidal. After reading Jbsix's post I really started thinking about it quite a bit, especially when my mind kept going back to the idea of living in Heaven agan. So, I've come to the conclusion that I really don't want to die. I'm afraid of dying. The thought of it chills me. But being in Heaven is another story. For me it comes down to I don't want to die. I don't want to experience dying, I'd just like to be beamed up to Heaven, sort of like in Star Trek. Christians call it the rapture, but I'm talking about a time before even that happens. And I think most of us are taking "dying" out of our desire to be with our spouses. When this all started happening, I felt left behind and just wanted to go there. But I never wanted to die. Very strange indeed.