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So he turns himself in while with his attorney and bail bondsman so he is immediately let out on bail. Someone posted 10,000 cash for him. Then I find out this process will take about a year and a half. I can't do this life for another year and a half. Can you imagine? The Hollow Woman. I'm a shell, a ghost of my former self. The last two days I've become dark and distant. I'm fake again. My thoughts are hopeless and I feel very empty. I felt that once I got to this place I would feel so happy and relieved, instead I feel deep sorrow. I guess because no matter what happens in court, I'm still me, my daughter is still her. It all still happened. Justice being served doesn't undo anything that was done and perhaps I thought it would somehow. Something is wrong with me. Why did this happen to me and my child? I was so vigilant. He was so beautiful outside and in, but had this ugliness to him that was too strong to resist and now that it has shown itself to be the true him, I'm .......struggling and ......a million other things. When the mud slinging begins I am stabbed over and over again. ...........................
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Stand strong! You can do it I know you can! I know it will take a long time. It took me almost 2 years just to get the charges pressed against mine. If you don\'t keep fighting through the trial he can and probably will get visitation and think of how much worse that would be than fighting him for the next year or so. I have promised my kids I will fight with everything in me to keep them safe and I don\'t plan on letting them down. You are a strong woman and your daughter is strong for telling in the first place. Have faith he will get whats coming to him if you keep the fight going with the courts. Try not to let him get to you. Get a protective order if you don\'t have one already. And try to ignore the lies he might be telling people you, your daughter and God all know what he did and when he is convicted so will everyone else. Big hugs and prayers to both you and your daughter.
awwww hon.... you are in such a struggle. i\'m so sorry. you and your daughter have to go through so much. I feel for you.
you ARE so strong,and carying. you are a great mother. yoru daughter is lucky to have you.
i\'m sending light and peace your way. take care.
don\'t forget you\'re loved.
hugs
ohhh. please stay strong. you are right, it doesn\'t erase anything, but in order for anyone to attempt to heal from this, he needs to do what is right & that is face up to what he\'s done & get help. I pray that someday he\'ll be able to apologize to your and your daughter.
you are going through so much both you and your daughter....try to do if you can some small happy or nice things for yourself.just to take your mind of things for awhile....