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First off I want to say Rapture, I hope you're fucking happy now! Then after that... I WAS doing so well. I finally had a job again, earning income, getting over my hatred of children... things like that. Well, that's over now. The very same day rapture sent me her letter -spits on her- Things changed for me. I no longer have work, I have $3 to my name, and to top it off I didn't get my stimulus check thing like I was supposed to. My father actually asked me if he paid for a membership to Curves (a women's only gym) If I would go. Thanks dad... imply that I'm fucking fat after I did so well at trying to lose weight.... thaaaaaanks. So now, I have no job, still no place of my own, still no steady income, no medical insurance, NOTHING! But wait... theres more! Any of you who have paid attention to my journal entries know of Chippy. Well tonight I think he made up his mind to not talk to me anymore. Now, it isn't his fault guys, so dont bash him, or I'll ignore you and delete your comments. But.. he recently went through a break up, and I was trying to be my normal flirty playful self that I am when I'm around him. And I wound up hurting him (yet again, stupid me) And now I fear he won't speak to me again. So I am back to square one. No job, no place, no car, no insurance, no way to fix all of that. And people wonder where depression comes from.... LIFE YOU MORONIC BASTARDS! I can honestly say that when i found out I really dont have work this summer I sat in my car and cried. What else could I do? I called the woman who hired me, but she wouldn't pick up her phone whereas normally.... she does. HEr words upon hiring me, and I quote verbatim "Call me anytime, I always have my phone on and with me" uhm.... apparently that was a lie. Then, the girl who helped me get the job in the first place.... I think she's the reason I dont have work at the moment. Too many things point to her. For one, she kept saying she HAS to have work HAS to Two, Shes said she wanted to work at wagner third, she said "Oh I feel so bad, but they basically gave me your spot" uh huh... if you felt bad about it, you'd be talking to Kim right along with me! Sorry, I'll stop. Nite *EXPLODES*
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Big Hugs, hun. I\'m so sorry all of this is happening to you. I understand the frustration. I\'m here, if you need to talk. Love and Hugs. Chris
I know that wanting to explode feeling all too well. Hang in hun.
David
I know what is it like to want to explode, been there the past few days. Huge hugs for you.
jen god im so sorry, things were going so well for you, dont give up. you are such a strong, caring person. dont let these things bring you down, you are a fighter. i believe in you. ily jennjenn
Take a big breath, Jenn. I know people suck alot of the time, but you can\'t control what they do -- only how you react to it. And when we suffer from depression, I know we\'re limited in our ability to do that. But still, if you aim towards responding and not reacting (thinking things through before you act) then you will have better outcomes from situations like this. Keep your eyes on your goal, and that is to have employment you can tolerate, if not enjoy, and not have to worry about shit like this. Maybe that will be somewhere else, or maybe you might have to fight for this if you really want it.
*big hugs to you*
how did you loose your job? (maybe I missed the reason-sorry) I\'m sorry I didn\'t read that letter you sent in a msg. I will try reading it later. Sorry.
wow! that is alot of downers, are you saying you\'re not getting a stimulus check or is it just late like most peoples? you said you have no car but you cried in your car how is that?
I hope things get better for ya soon.
I was driving dad\'s car. I apparently don\'t get one. And, I\'ve actually been praying for death. My only peace is sleep, and I cant sleep forever ya know?
Hugs hun. I\'m here if you need to talk some more. Love and hugs. Chris
I\'m so sorry hun, ((hugs)) wish there was more I could do for you..
that\'s not good , I hope things get better for ya , I been there before on some of the things