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First off I want to say Rapture, I hope you're fucking happy now!  Then after that... I WAS doing so well. I finally had a job again, earning income, getting over my hatred of children... things like that. Well, that's over now. The very same day rapture sent me her letter -spits on her- Things changed for me. I no longer have work, I have $3 to my name, and to top it off I didn't get my stimulus check thing like I was supposed to. My father actually asked me if he paid for a membership to Curves (a women's only gym) If I would go. Thanks dad... imply that I'm fucking fat after I did so well at trying to lose weight.... thaaaaaanks. So now, I have no job, still no place of my own, still no steady income, no medical insurance, NOTHING! But wait... theres more!  Any of you who have paid attention to my journal entries know of Chippy. Well tonight I think he made up his mind to not talk to me anymore. Now, it isn't his fault guys, so dont bash him, or I'll ignore you and delete your comments. But.. he recently went through a break up, and I was trying to be my normal flirty playful self that I am when I'm around him. And I wound up hurting him (yet again, stupid me) And now I fear he won't speak to me again. So I am back to square one. No job, no place, no car, no insurance, no way to fix all of that. And people wonder where depression comes from.... LIFE YOU MORONIC BASTARDS!   I can honestly say that when i found out I really dont have work this summer I sat in my car and cried. What else could I do? I called the woman who hired me, but she wouldn't pick up her phone whereas normally.... she does. HEr words upon hiring me, and I quote verbatim "Call me anytime, I always have my phone on and with me" uhm.... apparently that was a lie. Then, the girl who helped me get the job in the first place.... I think she's the reason I dont have work at the moment. Too many things point to her. For one, she kept saying she HAS to have work HAS to Two, Shes said she wanted to work at wagner third, she said "Oh I feel so bad, but they basically gave me your spot" uh huh... if you felt bad about it, you'd be talking to Kim right along with me! Sorry, I'll stop. Nite  *EXPLODES*