Bah Humbug!

Went to the rheumy today and told him my long story of continuing pain, fatigue and brain fog. His answer? He increased my gabapentin by 300mg (taken in the morning) wants to repeat blood tests for ESR, Rh factor, ANA, and complete blood count. Will get those test results later in the week. With my luck will probably not show anything! When I mentioned disability he said "Well u could but it's not recommended because of decreased income". Like I'm earning so much less right now!
Went to work even though I feel like crap and I didn't want to call in sick. Also when I did try to call I couldn't reach a supervisor. During my shift my boss asks me how I'm doing I reply, "hanging in there". Later though I managed to drop a stack of bowls on the floor (crash!! rattle, rattle!!). She came in asked me if I'm okay, I told her the truth and she let me go home. Feel like I don't know what to do. Feel the worst I have since being diagnosed! AAaacckk!