Bad Time
Its been a bad weekend and day today. I went to cemetery. all Christmas flowers were removed. I can't stand for there to be none. So many little things and it is crying time. A toy or a picture or a thought. Seems all new again. I got something for depression/ natural not drug. Hope it helps.
I just cannot believe this at times. Thinking I was too old for this. Trying to hang in. Helps to get away but then coming back.
I just cannot believe this at times. Thinking I was too old for this. Trying to hang in. Helps to get away but then coming back.
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Some days,,never know what the day will bring,,,it does make me sad when the cemetary is cleared of the christmas flowers,,,i was glad ours were still there this week. ((((hugs))))
I know what you mean - I think I\'m too old for this, too. And I still have moments, just short of one year anniversary, where I can\'t believe this happened to MY kid, in MY life. The reason I chose cremation was so I didn\'t have to visit a cemetery - I knew I\'d be there obsessively. She will be buried in my arms. I\'m making my own funeral arrangements, buying my own headstone, plans are firming up today or tomorrow and payment will be made. How odd to see your own headstone in the ground where you will lie (they will put the headstone in in the spring), but I fear nothing. To me, death is going Home, to God, to April, to my Aunt Di and my Nana, to the place where flowers sing and the wild creatures come up to you for a hug. And of course, to see the beauty of the Person I love the most, Jesus. Grief goes and comes back again. One step forward, three steps back. Yes I am beginning to see daylight but the pain will always be there, lurking under the surface and sometimes spilling out. God bless you and give you strength.
jill
I am so sorry for your pain. Visiting the cemetery is so hard especially in the winter when things always seem so cold and bleak! Hugs!!!
Understanding and holding you in my heart, love Teri.
With you and understanding what you are describing... You are not alone and we are here for you and one another. Hang on tightly. Love, Joanie
I\'m so sorry. It\'s so difficult in the early months. Everything is so new and we are so fragile. Please just get through one day at a time. We are here to help. Prayers for comfort and a gentle week. Love to you. Robin
Loving you and hoping you have more peace than pain today...God bless you...Brandon bear hugs, dale..brandon\'s mom
Cheryl I understand your feelings of grief, I\'m only a few months ahead of you on this journey and I know how bad it hurts. I hope what you got will help you to feel better. Nothing will take away our missing our children, but we need to find some peace, some balance in our lives. It will happen, little by little. Sending love, Terry
Cheryl I understand your feelings of grief, I\'m only a few months ahead of you on this journey and I know how bad it hurts. I hope what you got will help you to feel better. Nothing will take away our missing our children, but we need to find some peace, some balance in our lives. It will happen, little by little. Sending love, Terry
Cheryl I understand your feelings of grief, I\'m only a few months ahead of you on this journey and I know how bad it hurts. I hope what you got will help you to feel better. Nothing will take away our missing our children, but we need to find some peace, some balance in our lives. It will happen, little by little. Sending love, Terry