Bad night

What a bad night thought i'd be worn out after a busy day at work but i woke up to the words of sara evans you'll always be my baby going round in my head then the evening that dad  passed was going round and round in my head.Dad was so frightened of  dying leaving us and to see that fear in his eye's and the shouting of my mum's name at one point i'll don't think i will ever forget.my brother and i were outside just holding on to each other beceuse we knew what was comming.The nurses had given him an  injection to take away the fear as he had had a couple of panic attack earlier thats evening.I tkink dad knew he was slipping away as he seemed to be frightened to close his eyes that afternoon.At one point towards the end i aksed my gradad to please come and get him so he would be at peace.That night was so horrible i don't think it will ever go away.As  i write this it's snowing dad like the first fresh fall of snow.Love you dad xxx