Bad night
Last night after everything that happened I went to absolute pieces... I just cried and cried and cried. It felt like my whole heart just burst from all the pain, it really felt like I was being torn apart. I am sure that for that time, I experienced what others would call hell.
Even today I feel raw, like I have a massive wound that needs to heal. If I think about it, it feels like it could open again and I really can't fathom that right now.
I have my transfer next week; it’s the only thing that keeps me going. I am hoping against all odds that I may fall pregnant from the FET cycle and I will feel once again a tiny life growing inside of me.
I long for the day when I will be able to smile again, to feel absolute joy and contentment. I hope that day will be very, very soon.
Even today I feel raw, like I have a massive wound that needs to heal. If I think about it, it feels like it could open again and I really can't fathom that right now.
I have my transfer next week; it’s the only thing that keeps me going. I am hoping against all odds that I may fall pregnant from the FET cycle and I will feel once again a tiny life growing inside of me.
I long for the day when I will be able to smile again, to feel absolute joy and contentment. I hope that day will be very, very soon.
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You are loved, BIG HUGS.
Will be praying for a great result. Any wonder you broke down last night, you were extra strong yesterday. Hugs to you.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Good luck this week, will be thinking about you!