feeling very alone today. feel like i have been let down by everyone and im starting to wonder if im an easy target these days as im all over the place, drink to much on occasion, blah blah, so why not shit all over aime.
i havent been on for awhile, and im sorry. all has been well but have been struggleing with a new issue. wanting another baby. maybe not the best thing and alot of people tell me its part of bipolar. like almost having a compulsive condition, but its not. for the last year i have wanted a third baby. its my kids that keep me grounded, and i thank god every day for them. who knows where i would be without them. i want to add another to my clan of unconditional love. i dont know if you understan or not, but thats how i have felt for the longest time. guess its always nice to know someone is on your side. and my kids are. sadly my husband doesnt. maybe fincially and the age group. kids 9 and 5. but that aside these things always work out. i have never heard someone say i wish i hadnt had that other child. but they do say i wish i had the other child. now just to live with that hole in my heart. :(
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i havent been on for awhile, and im sorry. all has been well but have been struggleing with a new issue. wanting another baby. maybe not the best thing and alot of people tell me its part of bipolar. like almost having a compulsive condition, but its not. for the last year i have wanted a third baby. its my kids that keep me grounded, and i thank god every day for them. who knows where i would be without them. i want to add another to my clan of unconditional love. i dont know if you understan or not, but thats how i have felt for the longest time. guess its always nice to know someone is on your side. and my kids are. sadly my husband doesnt. maybe fincially and the age group. kids 9 and 5. but that aside these things always work out. i have never heard someone say i wish i hadnt had that other child. but they do say i wish i had the other child. now just to live with that hole in my heart. :(