bad day (trigger)

I had a really bad morning today. I woke up at 8 am and I started to get the urge to cut really bad. It was the worst that I've have in years. I don't know what's causing it... I tried to get to my therapist on Friday but I was in too much pain from my back to get there. I texted her today and asked when I could see her and I'm waiting for her to get back to me. I feel horrible that I couldn't go see her, but I just was in too much pain. It was so bad I had to take pills for it. 
My stomach is still bothering me, too. If it's not one thing, it's another. I feel hungry, but I shouldn't eat this late. If I wake up in the middle of the night needing to eat I will, but if I can fall asleep like this I should be fine. I have to be careful with what I eat. I don't know... I'm just going to go to sleep now. I'm tired and it's late.