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Atypical Anorexia Nervosa, Muscle Dysmorphia, Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder


I have all of these disorders that invold food and weight.


I have been struggling with food as yall know and how i see my body. I get really self-concious eating infront of people, and when I start to notice weight gain especially in my stomach I panic and feel like I have to stop eating. Last time I lost 15 pounds and cried everynight, that was when Matthew broke up with me. Its a cycle and I hate it. I want to be strong. I want to gain muscle and feel proud of my body. But the second i see fat instead of muscle, i feel like im not good enough, and i go back to restricting. its exhausting. i know this isnt healthly. i know this is something i need help with, but its hard to ask anyone that is older and not my friend for help. i just want to feel okay in ,y sin and body and eat without guilt and anxiety.

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CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

I don't think your fat at all.

Your in good shape.

If you want to build more muscle eat more protein. It will help. Also working out with weights will build muscle.

Are you still running?
That will also build strength and muscle in your legs.

Good luck. You can do this.

Hugs and Love xoxo
Niki903
Niki903

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can imagine it is very difficult to feel unsatisfied with your body and looks. I also think you are in a good shape. As you yourself know, this is not healthy. Usually, behind eating disorders, there is some deeper emotional problem (stress, trauma, anxiety...) etc. I recommend seeking professional help. Maybe you can ask a school counselor at school for help?
I wish you good luck.
Nutin_Special
Nutin_Special

This sounds exactly like me. Omfg. I think we are both this.
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine

Try to avoid the temptation to compare yourself to others. Accept yourself and love yourself because who you are on the inside is far more attractive then what you look like on the outside.....hugs
Nutin_Special
Nutin_Special

That's what they say to ugly people boob's. Tbh tho, I think she's beautiful af. She attracts men and women. I do relate to this too. It is super hard realizing what we see in ourselves. Inner happiness creates outer happiness. Ik it's hard feeling like we do and can see how much we're wrong but it's a struggle to live with. Like she feels, I'm sure I'm hot but I think I look like a cow.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

I am not running much anymore since track season is over. I dont compare myself to other. I look at my body and I dont like it.
CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

What is it that you don't like about your body?
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

My stomach is getting bigger
CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

Thats from eating.
Or you could be bloated from your period. Is it coming?

You know what's good for flattening your stomach. Doing sit-ups.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

Im not bloated. My period ended almost 2 weeks ago
CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

I've seen your body in pictures and I don't see anything wrong with it. You have the body of a model tall and thin.

Be thankful you have that kind of body. People would die to have your body and your looks.

If you still feel that way about your stomach then I would exercise and eat healthy. But I really don't think you have anything to worry about.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

I am feeling better about my body
CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

Im glad. <3
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

<3