Back to Writing!
I haven't posted in my journal and I am feeling it! When I was faithful of writing in my journal on a daily basis I did so much better - I have been in a slump, not feeling well, feeling down :( I believe if I start writing again it is going to help me! Well, today is my youngest sons birthday and we will be going to "Hometown Buffett" - I hate going to restaurants but I am doing it for my son, so I need to have a smile on face and face my fear!! On Saturday we are having a birthday party for him and that is going to be difficult too, I have a problem when I host a party, it makes me anxious, but again a smile on my face! I am still taking my walks up and down my street - my comfort zone, I need to start going a little further but it seems that every time I try I freak out and rush home. I am not sure how to get past that point but I guess I should just keep trying. I never did make it to the Panic Assistance support group - I used the excuse that I didn't feel well but I should have gone anyway. I will try again next week - I sure hope I make it this time. I need to realize that people at this support group are alot like me, they all have some kind of anxiety, phobia issue, etc. including the therapists.
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HUGS glad you are back writing in your journal. It helps me too! Good for you in facing your fears I hope you had and will have a great time celebrating your sons birthday! Keep trying with the walks I do that too. BIG HUGS!
GLAD TO HAVE YOU BACK....I need your support!! lol...Know exactly how you feel, but don\'t pressure yourself to go further if you are not ready....have been there...it only put me back.
Stay in your comfort zone, safe area, until you are ready to take your walk a bit further.
Know what you mean about parties, etc. I only ever do it for my family.
Love to hear from you.
Lv B x
You are doing so good! One of the things I have learned through my therapy is that we need to celebrate the small victories in our lives. When you walk up and down your street, you need to do something for yourself to acknowledge that. I know it seems silly, but for those of us who know what you are feeling, it\'s a BIG deal. I SWEAR! When I started getting my life back, I walked from my front door to my back door inside. maybe 25 feet. Back and forth like I was pacing. It was what I could do. It was small but it was SOMETHING. Always be proud of the things you can do today that you couldn\'t do yesterday. Every step is a good one. We must never giveup! You are doing great! You will be fine for your sons birthday! I know what you are going through and I am totally with you. I\'ll be thinking of you! Big hugs my friend!
Hey it\'s time to update that journal again! Anxiety makes you make all kinds of excuses to not do things. You will get there, take it in stride, and just be happy for the things you can do. Strive to do more, but don\'t get down if one day you just can\'t!