Back to work soon

I'm writing this due to I have to go back to work in two weeks after being off for 13 weeks. Im not ready to go back. I work in a large building and I have been there for over 8 years so I know a lot of people. Im just not ready to see the people stare and whisper because they know Im that person the only person out of all the women at work that lost there child. Everyone else got there babys. I guess Im a little jeolous and feel shafted. I hope I dont go back with a bad attitude. I guess that will be up to me.  I have also been home with my daughter who is 3 1/2 and I am scared to leave her. Im afraid that something will happen to her if she is not right by my side. Am I crazy for feeling like this? She started preschool a few weeks ago and I sit in the parking lot for 2 1/2hrs because I'm afraid to leave in case something would happen to her. Im so overprotective anymore since we lost Wyatt. I guess because I was so shocked that we lost him so late in the pregnancy and he was so healthy and then because of the knot in his umbilical cord he wasnt there one day ,so I guess I feel that I need to protect my little girl because I just never know what could happen. I just cant believe how this loss has completely turned my life upside down and left me in a complete whirl wind that I cant figure out.