back to work everything sucks

i am back at work .....hating all the drama hating everything right now.....i think i am rolling through an angry faze of grief  because i am just in general so mad right now i could just scream.  i wish i could have a few days off of alone time with no husband we had issues before and all that is making me mad again i need to seee a counselor no money for that though and we need to see a marriage counselor but fat chance of that i might just pack up all my shit and just leave everyone behind start a new life alone far away from everyone. why does any of this matter any more.  why waste the time my husband is lying again ....and he is all wrapped up in his stupid life again i could barely tolerate all the band shit before now i want to smash his guitars and computers preferably on his man parts!  ugggggggggggggg very very mad today