Back to work
I am back to work this week. Happily rested and motivated. I have no idea what I want but I'm getting there. I'm going to start writing those things down...brainstorming(This could be dangerous, lol). My weekend was laid back. I spent some of the day on Saturday visiting with a frend. We sat and talked for hrs. Just relaxing and for a moment I just breathed. I left feeling i wanted more times like that. Ive also decided, if I am in a relationship, I want a partner-not a codependant. Roomie I think seems to be getting the point. Heard him in the other room watching porn last night- Don't know if that was for me to hear or what but I didn't even care. If he watched porn and doesn't pay mind to me that just tells me my gut was right. He needs to be with someone that doesn't mind being ignored. I decided I shouldn't feel guilty. He is who he is and its just not condusive to what I want. I know that much. Hopefully we will remain lifelong friends but for now....I'm still looking for that second job-may start ubering in the evening. If I could make 100 a night that might be good. Ive been too long in and out of a antidepressant haze. And now that Im off of them feel motivated. But,I'm still sleeping alot. I'm hoping the ubering will help:) She works hard for the money........
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You might feel a little sensitive where little things might upset you but it won't last. After a few months you will be fine....It takes time for the brain to adjust.
If you have alot of ideas of potential jobs you might enjoy doing, why not put it out to the universe and ask which one would best benefit you and lead to your higher purpose in life? You will get an answer! Or better then that, let them come up with the idea! Often we get thoughts (intuition, if you will) of things that are totally opposite what we originally thought and turn out to be far better...Ya never know! If I thought about how afraid I was to quit my secure job and go into business for myself, I never would have done it. Now I make more money and am much more happier then I have ever been!
Your roomie watching porn sounds like he has fear of facing his own sex related problems....It's almost always a call for Love..
Congratulations on being off the antidepressants!
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Is it further proof that I don't have a romantic bone in my body that my favorite part of being married is that we can be alone and uniquely ourselves together? No pretense or pressure from or for either side. *Just* being. . . On the good days, at least. Those tit-for-tat days are still a bear.
I've heard some great reports on ubering as a second income. I'm looking forward to your updates. Even on my best couple days with Hubs, I still feel better for having a life and resources of my own.