Back to Walking
I haven't done a long walk in a while so today I did 2 miles. It felt good to be out there walking. I've missed it. I came home and I wasn't sore like I thought I was going to be. I didn't do it in record time like I did last time, but still, it's great to get out there and walk. I'm thinking about not taking my MP3 player to walk for a bit, so I can be lost in my thoughts. That's what I used to do in high school when there was no MP3 player for me to rely on. Running was the best part of my day in high school. It gave me time to myself, when it was just me and my thoughts (or not thinking at all). I hope that one day I can start jogging, and then running again. I still have my dream of running a marathon. I don't think that it's going to die easy, especially now with all the walking I'm doing. I'm stuck around 2 miles, but that's better than nothing. I probably could have done 2.5 miles, but I didn't want to push myself too far and end up in a depression like the last time. I don't know why walking would make me depressed, but it did one time and now I'm scared that it's going to happen again.
Mood today was good.. I have my present under the tree so yay :) I know what it is, but it's still a surprise since I don't know what kind it is. I'm getting a watch. I hope to get it by Wednesday, but I don't know if Geo will let me open it before Christmas. I'm going to be gone on Christmas day, at my mom's, so I don't know what he wants to do for presents. I need to go to the store and get Geo something for Christmas as well. He already got a big gift (a video camera) but I want to give him something else, something small. Just as a token of my love and appreciation for him. I might give him some of my peppermint bark, which is something I love but I don't eat it a lot. I like savoring the candy and he just eats it like anything else.
Stress today was low... at least as far as I can remember. There was this guy hitting on me in the apartment complex. He thought Geo was my brother, if you can believe that. It was kinda funny in retrospect. He just wants a booty call I think, but I'm not going to give him that satisfaction. I have Geo in my life, and he's the only love I need. I found the incident funny. I have a picture of Geo and I in my pictures album on DS, and you can see that he doesn't look like me at all. Maybe it's because we are both overweight? I don't know. Other than that, nothing of note happened that could have stressed me out.
Sleep was good last night... I got about 14 hours of sleep, but the last 3 hours were off and on. I've been drinking a ton of water, so I'm getting up to use the bathroom and such. The medication I've been taking for the shakes gives me horrible dry mouth, so I'm constantly drinking water. I've drank about 3 liters today (think one and a half of those two-liter bottles) so I'm constantly in the bathroom. I just hope my kidney problem isn't coming back. When I was on Lithium, I was peeing all the time and drinking all the time as well. It was much worse than this. I was drinking and peeing out over 6 liters a day. I had to stop taking it because of the side effects it was giving me and it was ruining my kidneys. I just hope that this new medication doesn't do that to me. I can't possibly be expected to know what's going to happen, especially if it's not a common side effect.
Food today was bad... I'm probably going to end the day under 1,100 calories, and that's if I eat my snack. If not, I will be at 850 calories for the day. I had chicken and ice cream for breakfast, ramen with mixed veggies and Tabasco sauce for lunch, and chicken and corn for dinner. Except for the ice cream, that's a regular day for me. I can eat a ton of ramen. Chicken, I'm getting kinda tired of. I don't want to eat it in the mornings when I wake up. Maybe I should just give it to Geo and eat yogurt for breakfast. That, and something else that I don't know yet. I should start eating oatmeal again. That's pretty good for you, gives me the carbohydrates that I'm always low on, and protein and stuff. I guess I will try that tomorrow morning and just take my chicken to work. I'm pretty sure on Tuesday I will eat my calories since we are having a lunch at work. Everyone is having Christmas parties, and my work is no exception. I wonder what the ladies at work think about me... they see me eating junk and I'm still losing weight. They don't see how hard I exercise and how little I eat at home. I do need to eat that junk because I'm always low on calories. We'll see how tomorrow goes!
Mood today was good.. I have my present under the tree so yay :) I know what it is, but it's still a surprise since I don't know what kind it is. I'm getting a watch. I hope to get it by Wednesday, but I don't know if Geo will let me open it before Christmas. I'm going to be gone on Christmas day, at my mom's, so I don't know what he wants to do for presents. I need to go to the store and get Geo something for Christmas as well. He already got a big gift (a video camera) but I want to give him something else, something small. Just as a token of my love and appreciation for him. I might give him some of my peppermint bark, which is something I love but I don't eat it a lot. I like savoring the candy and he just eats it like anything else.
Stress today was low... at least as far as I can remember. There was this guy hitting on me in the apartment complex. He thought Geo was my brother, if you can believe that. It was kinda funny in retrospect. He just wants a booty call I think, but I'm not going to give him that satisfaction. I have Geo in my life, and he's the only love I need. I found the incident funny. I have a picture of Geo and I in my pictures album on DS, and you can see that he doesn't look like me at all. Maybe it's because we are both overweight? I don't know. Other than that, nothing of note happened that could have stressed me out.
Sleep was good last night... I got about 14 hours of sleep, but the last 3 hours were off and on. I've been drinking a ton of water, so I'm getting up to use the bathroom and such. The medication I've been taking for the shakes gives me horrible dry mouth, so I'm constantly drinking water. I've drank about 3 liters today (think one and a half of those two-liter bottles) so I'm constantly in the bathroom. I just hope my kidney problem isn't coming back. When I was on Lithium, I was peeing all the time and drinking all the time as well. It was much worse than this. I was drinking and peeing out over 6 liters a day. I had to stop taking it because of the side effects it was giving me and it was ruining my kidneys. I just hope that this new medication doesn't do that to me. I can't possibly be expected to know what's going to happen, especially if it's not a common side effect.
Food today was bad... I'm probably going to end the day under 1,100 calories, and that's if I eat my snack. If not, I will be at 850 calories for the day. I had chicken and ice cream for breakfast, ramen with mixed veggies and Tabasco sauce for lunch, and chicken and corn for dinner. Except for the ice cream, that's a regular day for me. I can eat a ton of ramen. Chicken, I'm getting kinda tired of. I don't want to eat it in the mornings when I wake up. Maybe I should just give it to Geo and eat yogurt for breakfast. That, and something else that I don't know yet. I should start eating oatmeal again. That's pretty good for you, gives me the carbohydrates that I'm always low on, and protein and stuff. I guess I will try that tomorrow morning and just take my chicken to work. I'm pretty sure on Tuesday I will eat my calories since we are having a lunch at work. Everyone is having Christmas parties, and my work is no exception. I wonder what the ladies at work think about me... they see me eating junk and I'm still losing weight. They don't see how hard I exercise and how little I eat at home. I do need to eat that junk because I'm always low on calories. We'll see how tomorrow goes!
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