Back to the drawing board

Well, after having been really excited 3 weeks ago where I had gotten a really good amount of eyelashes back to the point I felt partially normal, here I am almost back at square one.  I really hate relapses.  I just hate that once it starts it goes on for days and days with no stopping it.  I haven't had decent eyebrows in years because any time I get an urge I tend to try to pull those instead of eyelashes.  I'm pretty well accomplished at drawing my eyebrows on that it doesn't phase me as much anymore.  My eyelashes on the other hand, I'm devastated when those disappear.  I would loooooove to have both eyebrows and eyelashes, but I start feeling like such a freak when my eyelashes are gone.
This relapse isn't helping my stress level either since I'm already stressed from the fact that my husband and I having been trying to get pregnant for about 10 months with no luck so far.  That's been bad enough.  Just trying to push through and hope for the best