Back to the beggining :-(

Well, I failed again... It was stupid, I had really no real reason for lying. Ok, I didn't vacuum the flat, but is it worth to lie about such things? Of course not. So why I said so? To cover my shortcomings of course... Not good.There is one interesting thing about that. Maybe it was needed for that. Well, earlierI took my step two. I have had a really deep prayer. And guess what? When I lied, just the moment I did, I started to cough. I couldn't resist it. There was no particular reason for that, but I kept coughing and coughing. I did the vacuum and few other things that I promised and it get a bit better (but still I had that strange feeling in my throat).It might be just coincidence. But - as I recall many such "coincidences", well... I believe it was not. Like in that allegory when a man deeply believing in God suffers from flood. So he starts to pray "Dear God, stop that flood and save me from death". When water was already in the house, a boat reached it and rescuers asked the man to get into it, but he replied "No, God  will help me". And prayed even stronger. But the rain kept raining and the water was higher and higher. So the man moved to the floor of his house. Another boat came and the situation repeated - rescuers asked the man to get in but he refused. While the rain went even worse, and the man had moved to the roof, the first boat came back to check if the man has changed his mind. But he said "No, my God will help me". Rescuers persuaders: "Look there is water everywhere, it will take You and there is no dry place in the nearby, come with us". But the man was so sure about God's help, that he stayed. Soon, even a roof of his house was in water, and as he wasn't a good swimmer, soon he drowned. When he standed in a front of God he asked with a reproach: "God, I was asking You to save me and You didn't stop the rain. Why?" And God answered: "I sent You boats three time, but You never get into any of them".There are signs among us, but we often don't see them...