Back to Normal
Things have gone back to normal now. I'm not depressed, but I'm not on the high I was yesterday. I think part of it is that I'm tired. I had an okay day... Geo was having issues with his anger, but I didn't let it get to me. I let him go on his little rampage and he calmed down. We talked about it... it has to do with food. He thinks I should get more food for him and not give him crap when he asks for food. I know it's hard, but he does have a point. He eats a lot, and he does need food he can eat. I just give him crap because the foods he wants are the most expensive ones... not the cheap hot dogs, but Nathans or some other expensive brand. I'm happy with the dollar package of chicken hot dogs. I also know the chicken hot dogs are better for you in terms of calories. I just try and look out for him, but I'm doing it too much. I should be looser with him and let him get what he wants within reason. We aren't spending all our food stamps every month (well, we spend them, but we are not running out) so there's no reason I can't get him some treats. Now, this is within range... I'm not going to buy him a giant bag of candy every week or something.
I think had Geo been in a better mood I would have had a better day, but I'm not sure. I got 12 hours of sleep last night, but I've been tired all day. I tried taking a nap but didn't manage to get any sleep in. I think I'm going to take my sleeping pills tonight to try and get to sleep early. I didn't fall asleep till almost midnight last night, and I was woken by the phone a couple of times. I had to put the phone on mute so I could get some rest.
My doctor's office called me to let me know that my blood levels were a bit off on some of my labs, but it wasn't anything huge. My triglycerides are high, which is strange since I got them tested earlier and they were fine, but whatever. I have to go by the official labs. My doctor told me to try and lose weight and go on a low fat diet, which I am doing. I just need more of the Omega-3 fatty acids, since my HDL cholesterol is low. The other abnormal reading was that my Depakote level was a bit high. It's nothing to be worried about, but they said to bring the results into my doctor when I see him. They are mailing me the paperwork, so it's nothing urgent.
I feel like I could fall asleep now, which is normal for this time. I've been hallucinating a bit today, so that's not good. I was taking a bath and I kept seeing black spots everywhere and little white ones too. I wish I could get them to stop. Maybe I just noticed them more since I was in a white bathroom, but I don't normally hallucinate that much when I take a bath normally. I don't know... I just don't feel that great today.
Food today was low on calories again... Today I haven't even made it to 1,200 calories yet, and I'm already planning on going to bed. I'm supposed to be at a minimum of 1,550. I was hungry, but we didn't have any food. We were supposed to go to the grocery store, but Geo's dad wasn't feeling well so it had to be put off until tomorrow. My goal this week was to get in my calorie range at least 5 days of the week, I have 3 so far. I could have gone to the store today to get some stuff, but Geo's dad was supposed to take us and we didn't find out until later that he wasn't going to be able to take us. I went to go get some clothes instead. I found a woman on Freecycle who was giving away clothes in my size. I haven't been able to go through the boxes yet (no energy to do so), but I'm just glad that I have more nice pants for work. It's a bunch of different stuff from what I was able to see, but it's cool.
Stress was higher today since Geo has been mad most of the day. He calmed down for our talk, but I can hear him yelling at his video games again. He plays them when he's mad to calm down, but how getting annoyed at a video game can calm you down is beyond me. Sleep was not too good... I got enough hours, but not enough quality. I'm going to try and go to sleep early tonight to see what I can do about making up for it. Mood was okay... I'm going to put okay since I've been out of it most of the day, and I talked about food above.
I think had Geo been in a better mood I would have had a better day, but I'm not sure. I got 12 hours of sleep last night, but I've been tired all day. I tried taking a nap but didn't manage to get any sleep in. I think I'm going to take my sleeping pills tonight to try and get to sleep early. I didn't fall asleep till almost midnight last night, and I was woken by the phone a couple of times. I had to put the phone on mute so I could get some rest.
My doctor's office called me to let me know that my blood levels were a bit off on some of my labs, but it wasn't anything huge. My triglycerides are high, which is strange since I got them tested earlier and they were fine, but whatever. I have to go by the official labs. My doctor told me to try and lose weight and go on a low fat diet, which I am doing. I just need more of the Omega-3 fatty acids, since my HDL cholesterol is low. The other abnormal reading was that my Depakote level was a bit high. It's nothing to be worried about, but they said to bring the results into my doctor when I see him. They are mailing me the paperwork, so it's nothing urgent.
I feel like I could fall asleep now, which is normal for this time. I've been hallucinating a bit today, so that's not good. I was taking a bath and I kept seeing black spots everywhere and little white ones too. I wish I could get them to stop. Maybe I just noticed them more since I was in a white bathroom, but I don't normally hallucinate that much when I take a bath normally. I don't know... I just don't feel that great today.
Food today was low on calories again... Today I haven't even made it to 1,200 calories yet, and I'm already planning on going to bed. I'm supposed to be at a minimum of 1,550. I was hungry, but we didn't have any food. We were supposed to go to the grocery store, but Geo's dad wasn't feeling well so it had to be put off until tomorrow. My goal this week was to get in my calorie range at least 5 days of the week, I have 3 so far. I could have gone to the store today to get some stuff, but Geo's dad was supposed to take us and we didn't find out until later that he wasn't going to be able to take us. I went to go get some clothes instead. I found a woman on Freecycle who was giving away clothes in my size. I haven't been able to go through the boxes yet (no energy to do so), but I'm just glad that I have more nice pants for work. It's a bunch of different stuff from what I was able to see, but it's cool.
Stress was higher today since Geo has been mad most of the day. He calmed down for our talk, but I can hear him yelling at his video games again. He plays them when he's mad to calm down, but how getting annoyed at a video game can calm you down is beyond me. Sleep was not too good... I got enough hours, but not enough quality. I'm going to try and go to sleep early tonight to see what I can do about making up for it. Mood was okay... I'm going to put okay since I've been out of it most of the day, and I talked about food above.
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