back to monitoring

For the last few months I have been waiting for cycle monitoring then it was cancelled...well I think that this time will be the same. I began on day 12 (saturday), then they told me to come in today just for a blood test so that means they beleive nothing is happening and probably will not happen. I am trying to keep positive but I think I only had one shot at being a mom and now it is gone. DH and I will send away for our adoption kit tonight and begin to go through our savings and redo our budget. At least we tried and learned from our experiences. I am still waiting for the doctor to call me back concerning the blood test....I hate clomid....my hot flashes are coming quicker now and I can not take it.Well that is what is going on with us....Hope to hear good news from everyone on DS.Cheers