back to hurting

I thought I was numb, that lasted 1 day.  The week went by fast. I was very worried about the weekend, had no plans but I wound up having my 3 1/2 year old grandson from Saturday afternoon till Sunday afternoon.  Needless to say I was busy but it seemed like I missed him more.  He got such a kick out of our grandson.  Again I know time helps but it seems like the days are going but I still feel the same ... very sad and lonely ... a piece of me is missing.