back to fighting..... again
i am so freaking tired of arguing. I sweR. But i have got to be married to the most negative person in the world. Any time i bring up the baby, nursery, bedding anything, its like i get sucker punched emotionally. We are at lowes today and I mention I want to go look at lighting for the nursery. I really want a simple classic chandaleer for her roo. Well he starts in with thats stupid we are not getting a chandaleer we are getting a ceiling fan. Im like since when have you had anything to do with teh nursery. Everytime i bring anything up you say something bad. Yes she is having a nursery. Then he just goes on and on. Then the big kicker on teh way hom he has the nerve to ask me how we will pay for the baby stuff i want. From th esecond I found out I was pregnant i have been saving money. he KNOWS this. We have talked about it SEVERAL SEVERAL times. Well i loose it and say i refuse to talk t you anymore, becuase it a complete waist of breath and energy. This has been a on going issue in our marriage for years. He asks questions and could careless about teh answer. he thinks as long as words are being spoken its ok. He NEVER listens or even cares what your answer is. He just talks to hear his own voice. I have almost $500 in the baby account. by the time we need the nursery and have moved I will have close to $1500. Mpre than enough for my dream nursery. We all know im the queen of sales and coupons so i will probably spend closer to 1k. I have showed him bedding, furnature, all he ever says is negative things. Im so sick of it. I ripped into him. He knows having kids and a nursery is a dream i have always had. because of him persuing his dreems and career i have had to sacrifice that. Now i know i will finally have a nursey (granted it will be months after she gets here when we move) I am trying to focus on the positive things. I get to have a bomb nursery. But he always knocks me down. I have not bought anything but clothes and i have only spent maybe MAYBE $40. We got a ton of clothes so I dont need anything really. We only need a monitor. We have a basinet and a co sleeper already. So seriously i could be 9 months pregnant today have the baby tomorrow and we would be fine. But he has to always cut me down. He says the nursery just isnt important to him. I said fine but the fact that its important to me should make it important to you. we will see how this goes. I have to go finish dinner now.
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