Back on Meds.
I went to the Dr. today and when I was asked what was wrong, i broke down and said :"I need help".
I explained that I had been on Meds. at different times and that I had got off everything about a year ago. I explained about the death of my ex, being there for our son and daughter and, I said there was just so many other things and stressors on me that I can't deal with them any more. I have lost down to 221 lbs. I can't sleep, I haven't been eating right, I am on edge all the time, etc.
They put me on Citalopram and Tranxene for the anxiety that I feel as well. My BP is higher than it has ever been and they want to check it in 6 weeks to see of it has come down. They believe the elevation of my BP is due to all the stress I have been under. If it hasn't came down in my 6 week checkup, they was to treat it as well.
The big "showdown" at church is coming up next week. After this is over, maybe I can get some R&R and get things back to some type of normality. I have been in turmoil with these people since Nov. 2012. If I survive fine, if I resign, fine too. I just want this to be over so I can focus on the future, whatever it holds.
I explained that I had been on Meds. at different times and that I had got off everything about a year ago. I explained about the death of my ex, being there for our son and daughter and, I said there was just so many other things and stressors on me that I can't deal with them any more. I have lost down to 221 lbs. I can't sleep, I haven't been eating right, I am on edge all the time, etc.
They put me on Citalopram and Tranxene for the anxiety that I feel as well. My BP is higher than it has ever been and they want to check it in 6 weeks to see of it has come down. They believe the elevation of my BP is due to all the stress I have been under. If it hasn't came down in my 6 week checkup, they was to treat it as well.
The big "showdown" at church is coming up next week. After this is over, maybe I can get some R&R and get things back to some type of normality. I have been in turmoil with these people since Nov. 2012. If I survive fine, if I resign, fine too. I just want this to be over so I can focus on the future, whatever it holds.
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Sending prayers to provide you strength as you go through the next week!
I\'ve been worried about you. No shame on going back to meds Pee Wee. Whatever it takes. I\'m so proud of you for reaching out for help. Some people have a very difficult time doing that and it takes great courage. I hope you find some peace today and learn to love yourself and see that you deserve peace and happiness. Some how some way bury the old demons and begin a new journey of love and acceptance of self. You have my best wishes and support my friend.
Really holding you in prayer. I was worried because I had not seen you posting in a while. Glad you got some meds. And what is it about trouble makers in church? I know you are a great pastor, and I hope you will post a good report - that the problem people left, instead of you. God bless!
I know you have been through so so much.. Know I am keeping you in my prayers and I sure hope everything gets resolved soon with the situation at church so you can move on and have that stress behind you. Please take good care of yourself, I worry about you. Love you Pee Wee.
Peewee.. I\'m sorry I haven\'t been over here in a bit... Please stay on your meds this time... The same thing keeps reoccurring ... The meds help you.. You feel better and then you quit them.. It\'s a roller coaster ride and it\'s so hard to be getting on and off of it all the time..
You are such a dear friend and I\'m so sorry you\'re suffering.. love for you..xoxo
I havent been on here in a long time, and this is the first thing I see about you, I dont know what all have been going on with you, but you got to get it together, because u really is the only reason I really get on here, so I will talk to you a lil later bout my feelings and what\'s going on with me, but I can\'t be selfish rit now