Back on Lexapro

I started taking 10mg of Lexapro a day starting today.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  It was going beyond the panic attacks.  It was anxiety and even depression.  One of the things that triggers this is "waiting."  I would get anxious waiting at a red light, waiting in traffic, even sitting watching tv at night and looking at the clock and it is 10pm and I am "waiitng" to go to bed at 11pm.  This triggered a bad panic attack the other night waiting in church.  Evenings now seem to be worse.  I was fine at church on Saturday for 4 hrs for David's Confirmation!  Although the one difference is I was not alone.  Paul's sister was sitting next to me and talking to me and that kept my mind focused on other things.  I almost welcome the numb, zombie feeling.  The constant anxiety and fear was just beginning to take over.  I haven't even been exercising.  It is like I couldn't do all the things that I enjoy anymore.  I haven't been reading.  I haven't even wanted to eat that much.  I haven't wanted to exercise.  I haven't even been listening to music.  I did not take a Xanax yesterday (day 1.)  I felt pretty good all day but I was working.  Last night sitting watching tv I did get anxious around 10pm.  I did take melatonin before bed and I really, really had to focus last night when I went to bed on my breathing and relaxing.  Breathing in slow and deep and holding my breath for 3 seconds, breathing out really slow and holding my breath for 3 seconds. 
I know the back of my head  was really bothering me yesterday and last night and my shoulder blades and most likely just hypertension. 
Working from home today.  Just got my 3rd loss for the week.  Ugh!  Thank God the rain stopped and the sun has peaked out a few times this AM.  Streets were all flooded last night and it was a little spooky driving to pick David up from karate.  I have bowling tonight (my Friday night league.)  Sunday I have a family birthday party to go to for a cousin. 
Still occasionally having stomach issues, but slightly better.  At least it is not all the time.  Just taking this all one day at a time right now and praying for "normal."